Let's Routinely Check Eye Health!

Eye health is essential for this life.  With healthy eyes, we can feel safe at every opportunity. We can more believe in the choices way to someplace. But, not at all agree with my principal choice. There is somebody who chooses not to come to ophthalmologists. The reason is they afraid to know about the changed size of glasses. Even though, It can damage other people. For example, if they use glasses of the wrong size, it will disturb people around them. Notably, they are trusted to drive vehicles, especially at night. Thus, please be aware of our environment and more concerned with eye health. Let's go to ophthalmologists soon near our houses normally once a year.  I'm sorry, I have to remembering you about this because I just had an unpleasant experience. The person who drove me like that phenomenon is people who don't care about eye health.  

The Raging Period of Weaning

Weaning is heavy for most mothers, especially those whose child is still significantly dependent on their mom when it's time to wean. For example, the child must drink from the mom's breast. Moreover, there is no other choice for our child other than breastfeeding breast milk like my third daughter. She didn't like formula milk at all. I have tried some ways to encourage my daughter for getting artificial milk. I started by buying many forms of nipples and bottles. But, it was not a solution. Moreover, my third daughter is so near to me. For two years, I didn't go anywhere because of calamity, Covid-19. So, I felt confused about weaning her.

Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me ease and fluent things. The process of weaning started on Mei 14, 2022 in the morning. That day made my strong intention to not wean again. In fact, I felt tired physically and mentally. About physically tired, could be seen by my new habit in the night every accompanying my daughter in her sleep. As usual, before, I just stand by in sleeping conditions while breasting. For the first-night starting weaning, it didn't happen anymore. I had to assail their assault about her want for getting breastmilk again. I had to bear it since then. If I gave up, It would be a loser and we had to start again on another occasion.

The days before, I read a pedestrian's post on Instagram. In fact, it was very helpful in giving me the motivation to wean my daughter soon. My daughter's birthday is Maret 11, 2020. So, I should start weaning from the same date in 2022, two years after her born day. And it could be real because of my weak motivation. Everyone around me just asked me to wean but did not give me help. I was alone fighting. It was so freaking me out.

I gave thanks to the pedestrian. Finally, I got brave to stop the weaning session. Below, I attached a picture of the weaning process. It looked so heartwarming. She slept on my sling.

Source: Self Document. 2022

Every now and then he wakes up and looks for breasts. Then, I talk to her to give an attention that it was not time to drink breastmilk anymore. I gave her my warm hug again and again. Actually, I was crying in deep at times. But, I had to be strong in front of her. The way which I choose was I prepare mineral water and UHT milk on the table. I also take tomato, food which she likes to eat every day. Indeed, she didn't like the formula milk because she couldn't drink from the bottle with a nipple. She only could drink by sucking from a straw-like picture below.

 Source: Self Document. 2022 

The last, I also provided fun shows she likes. I wish the reader of my blog will get inspiration and motivation to wean their children at the right time.

What a Depression Day!

I referred to the days by their labels. For me, today is the horrible one. This feeling is unique to me, not shared by those around me. I saw a very wide laugh between them. It caused me to lead a life that felt very different from those around me. There is loneliness in the crowd. What a weird person! Why can't I feel their feelings? Simultaneously, I experience their emotions in various ways. 

It's been a long time. I'm still here to feel the same feeling—no changes. Just changing position and it couldn't be a comfortable feeling. I want to quit the acts. I can only present actions that match how I feel. I can't be a hypocrite. I just act and I act based on what I believe.

It's like a trap. Honestly, I used to flee from the harsh reality. In fact, I was running from one harsh reality to another. Now I think, why should I run? If staying quiet and running are the same, I prefer to be silent. At least, it didn't tire me out.

Realistic Dreams

Everyone has something to fight for. There is a dream, a goal in their life. It's about the art of living a life. I have a dream and I really fight for it. However, I don't strive to achieve all my dreams. There are two kinds of dreams: the dream that can be realized and vice versa. Let me ignore my dreams, which can't be realized. Let me focus on my realistic dreams.

Only in Solo

Since I was born, I have just been living life in Solo. Only in Solo. But that meant I would leave Solo. Solo is my final destiny. There are my parents there. I pledge to care for them until the end of our days. I don't know who will die first. As far as I know, death has no age. 

In fact, always living in Solo was not my desire. My father asked me to get an education and work just in this city. I didn't know why he ordered. But I had to obey the policy. Really heavy at first. Add more; there were ridicule from the big family. However, it's amusing nowadays. In my thirties and over, I can go home to meet my daddy and my mommy whenever I want. Thank you.

Fighting My Fear

Everyone has their labels. I'm different from another person. Every person is also different from other people. I call myself an introvert. Do you know about it? It's so distinct with a man or a woman with an extroverted character. An introverted woman like me often hides away the feeling. But I can show my sense after several moments. While I feel something, I think first. Then, I can utter it after I think that my feeling deserved to be expressed. And it needs a long time. 

Yesterday, I was like, "Not me." Easily, I showed my emotions instantly. It was not what I wanted. But I think I must have been a different person yesterday. Do you know why? It is because there was a nosy person who annoyed me openly. Whether I wanted it or not, I had to serve. Was I afraid at that time? Absolutely! But I had to fight my fear. Alhamdulillah, God protected me at that time. 

Dealing with A Curious Person

I've tried to hold the taste for seven years. That feeling was very heavy. A person who is the opposite of me was always around and monitoring my activities. The attack is impossible. The only choice is to eschew for a moment during that time.

The most annoying form of attack is the constant stream of words that come out of people's mouths. I'm used to being a quiet person. I feel disturbed about the naughty and curious people. It so violates my privacy. I tried my best to keep my thoughts private, but they are ultimately just vain concerns. Unexpectedly, a person whom I consider special always answers the question about me. I seldom light chat, so not much information gets out. But there was always an effort to get information from another source. It's really irritating.