I referred to the days by their labels. For me, today is the horrible one. This feeling is unique to me, not shared by those around me. I saw a very wide laugh between them. It caused me to lead a life that felt very different from those around me. There is loneliness in the crowd. What a weird person! Why can't I feel their feelings? Simultaneously, I experience their emotions in various ways.
It's been a long time. I'm still here to feel the same feeling—no changes. Just changing position and it couldn't be a comfortable feeling. I want to quit the acts. I can only present actions that match how I feel. I can't be a hypocrite. I just act and I act based on what I believe.
It's like a trap. Honestly, I used to flee from the harsh reality. In fact, I was running from one harsh reality to another. Now I think, why should I run? If staying quiet and running are the same, I prefer to be silent. At least, it didn't tire me out.
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